Self-knowledge is prized among men. EQ in employees is ranked high among employers. Surely, you have sought out who you are, what you can be etc.
Modern day spiritualism tells you that you could grow yourself. ‘Tis true due to the gifts of God.
However there’s only so much you can know of yourself. Others can tell you something who you are; and you know something of of yourself which others do not. Only God can completely reveal who you are to yourself. Very often is through prayer.
Have you stopped praying because you no longer want to know yourself?
Would like to continue to grow in the ways of God, who can bring you from your lonely height to the heights of His holy mountain?