Another Day

Yesterday was tough. Tried to guard my emotions and set up my defenses, but at the end of the day, I was just too tired. I felt weak and alone. I always prayed, “God, even if you think I can carry this cross. Must I really carry it.” So grabbing my stuff, I fled to ado. I sat there and I cried… I’m not that strong Jesus. I’m not… 40mins, til tmr… Jesus can you get me through this day. So I sat there and wept as time went by. I survived, even made a friend. And you know Lord. Thank you. For this friend I’ve made and also, for getting me through one more day. Wrote this song during my sorrow, finished it today.

http://yourlisten.com/timothy.swee.3/another-day

 

Another Day

Cant fight this feeling any longer

With all this darkness closing in

Cant help but feel that I am tired and alone

Someone save me from this place

 

You know my resting and my rising

You count each tear that I cry

This day I pray that I can get up on my feet

And maybe give you one more chance

 

So I look to you

As I put on my shoes

And go, another day

 

So shine down on me

With your strength from Calvary

As I go, another day

 

Three times the world tried to conscript me

Three times I had renounced your name

But each time that the world had caved in

Jesus you saved me from this place

 

So I look to you

As I put on my shoes

And go, another day

 

So shine down on me

With your strength from Calvary

As I go, another day

 

So I look to you

Knowing you’ll see me through

As I go, another day

 

Love,

Swee

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Mk10:17-30 [28th Sunday in Ordinary Time]

14th October, 2012 Readings: 28th Sunday in Ordinary Time

This week’s Gospel is telling us so much, so I had to split the reading into a few parts and slowly milk those words.

“Good teacher, what must I do to inherit eternal life?”

What must I do to inherit eternal life? This is the question we ask God constantly. At least I do. At the end of the day, we all desire to return to God, and be complete in His love. There is so much reward in Heaven, yet God says it simply: Go, sell what you have, and give to the poor and you will have treasure in heaven; then come, follow me. The exchange sounds pretty good right? Your life and temporary worldly possessions (like money) in exchange for eternal life, love and heavenly treasures?

Of course it is not that simple! We always struggle to fully follow Jesus. There are so many pull factors in the secular world, like the desire for academic success, success in the working world, temptations, material possessions and even peer influence (the list goes on). We also often find ourselves getting too comfortable in our daily routines until we end up basking in our stagnancy and stasis (This may even apply to our spirituality). We just can’t let go, or are afraid to let go, of what we think is security.

God challenges us this week to make a daring leap, to stop trying to control everything in our lives, to simply let go and trust. Let’s use an analogy, remember those times where you had to do the “trust fall” activity in camps? We always fear the possibility of our friends not being strong enough to catch the fall. With God, it is 100% guarantee, he is like a comfy bouncy mattress waiting to embrace your fall. So, let go.

“Teacher, all of these I have observed from my youth.”
“You are lacking in one thing”

The man has observed all the commandments, yet he is lacking in one thing. Oh no, there’s more? Observing rites and rituals is insufficient, we cannot blindly follow them and expect to inherit eternal life. God invites us to be serious about our faith, to live as he did. God also reminds us that we cannot be greedy and desire both God and our worldly possessions at the same time. We can’t say that we have two equally important priorities. So, we have to make a choice, and God hopes we choose him. In the same way when people tell us to give our very best in chasing our dreams, God tells us not be half-hearted in following him. If you really want it, you need to put in your 100%.

“Children, how hard it is to enter the kingdom of God!
It is easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle than for one who is rich to enter the kingdom of God.”

Oh hahaha! God is a funny bunny. The image of a camel passing through the eye of a needle is a little hilarious. On a serious note, God acknowledges it is definitely a HUGE struggle to let go of our worldly comforts. Faith is not a stroll in the park. Entering the kingdom of God is not as easy as only believing and accepting that God is God. Instead, we are asked not only to be a practitioner of the faith but to be followers. And what does it mean to be a follower? Be a camel, let go of all the baggage and unnecessary possessions you are carrying so that you may fit through the door of the Kingdom of God – naked, vulnerable and ready to be embraced by God your saviour.

And this reading ends off really nicely,

“For human beings it is impossible, but not for God. All things are possible for God.”

So, this week, aim to let go of something that you have been holding on tightly to. For me, it is being self-centered, and always expecting others to tend to my needs. What about you?

Mk8:27-35 [24th Sunday in Ordinary Time]

16th September, 2012 Readings: 24th Sunday in Ordinary Time

For my reflection, I will just share what struck me in the readings. The passage which stood out the most to me would be the last sentence, which states “for whoever would save his life will lose it; and whoever loses his life for my sake and the Gospel’s will save it”. This passage reminded me of the previous Sunday’s  Sojourn session about Trust – how we must trust in God and as such be willing to lose our lives for Him, as we know that He will save us and grant us the greatest gift: that of eternal life.

Jesus is telling His disciples that whoever loses his life for Him will be saved by Him. In our everyday lives, often we only think about ourselves, doing things which will be for our benefit, neglecting spending time with God for earthly needs such as going out with friends, or worse still, studying. In a sense, I picture this as saving one’s self, to fulfill one’s selfish needs, and this will only lead to him losing his “life”. We are often bogged down by such pressures and forget that by saving our own lives, we will just end up losing it.

Jesus tells us that if we are to follow Him and His ways, i.e. to follow after Him, we will have to deny ourselves and take up His cross. “Losing our life” signifies to me a kind of willingness to give up all our worries, our pressures, our needs and wants to follow Him. It will not be a simple journey and this is signified by the need to carry our own crosses and, but we have to trust in God and Jesus, that if we follow in His ways, we will be saved.

So, friends, I pray for everyone and myself that this week, we will all be willing to trust in God, that we do not focus too much on “saving” ourselves, but willingly “lose our lives” for His sake. Don’t get bogged down too much with your daily lives, but instead follow in the footsteps of Jesus. Have a good week ahead! (:

– Paul Goh